Champagne fiction

I've never been to NewYork, but today's weather made me think of that city, just because I what? once saw this musicprogram with interviews made in the wintery NY, and somehow today w blue sky, pale sun and grayish chill, nice graysih like all soft, made me think of NY and made me all wow, I live in the big world.
Since, I have learned that there are no more tickets for Tiger Army, and I just felt like going home and sleeping through the day, not caring about the brilliant illuminating wonderful sunshine or good mood it brings today. I feel like I want to crawl out of my body and I don't like it at all, nothing seems to fit good today and I don't like it at all.
I'm supposed to heave out page after page of coherent thought about all sorts of things, I'd rather just take a walk long the river towards the sea and take in the sunshine until it goes down, then stroll back homerward and meet up with the people I live with to go see if an old cat would like to come live in our House.

My youngest brother turns 18 today, all grown up!!
There's more Totoro in store for him; it's all about being allowed to believe in yourself YY

So yeah, I'm all right now, backtacking the feelings a few lines up.
Funny enough that D'espairs Ray are in my hearing
A
L
L
the time
They really are and have been for soon two weeks. Constant play. I don't lyrically understand more than the few lines that are in english, but they just have me, right there right like that.
Violent Femmes, Saosin, Gojira and Faith No More are doing things too, again and much lately.
But D'espairs Ray...
LIQUIDIZE!

stay brave and shine your light
Shine your own light
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And Champagne fiction? Gots all to do w last w/e when I was talked to and spoken by and looked over and upon and
W H A T
crazyness.
hah!!
ha!

pop up book

pop up popup
popopopopopopopup
Got myself a pop up book today.
Thought about making one.

Right now I've been compiling SIAMESE DRUMMERS.
Texts have found me and eachother and we melt and mold and smile. Number nine at the bottom of the last page.
People are excited about transformation
excited about change
Scared and afraid if they only thought about it
It's free is it?
It's automatic upgrade isn't it?
It'll just leave me sleeping won't it?
I'm allright
I'm all right
Allright.
XD

Hello little sparkle
hello little fire of will
Hello little starseeker
let's see how much there is to spill

I've never seen a highway
Never had one be lost to me
We're about as close as a cat gone wild

Hello little flower, little colour of marigold
When did you grow so tall
When did you turn me to the sun so strongly
When did you turn to my side so smilingly

Hello little child who's all grown up
hello my dear so clear in your mind
hello my sweetest so cleared up in my mind
White dull light

Hello little sparkle

oh yeah

drum'n'bass stream
NEW DAY COME
SHAPESHIFTER
WE'VE ONLY JUST BEGUN...

LIQUIDIZED
mANIAS all over and I am impressed.

I am also impressed by the fact that people sometimes forget themselves and stream into something that is so much better for them.
I am impressed by the fact that people sometimes make the world make sense.
Mad world and we are the ones who make it insane and more mad.
It is kind of funny, the way we live, the way we are, what we do, what me make things mean, what we are afraid to say and afraid to express and afraid to hear.
I am at the moment only afraid of not being able to forget myself enought to let myself onto a new track
I am only afraid of not being able to see myself as the wave in motion I am.
I am only afraid of letting myself being frozen to the ground, I am only afraid of not finding the push in me that it takes for me to move.

I am impressed, nonetheless.
Impressed and after all, maybe not so afraid.


SHINE SO BRIGHT

Muke ELECTRIC signs in

again.
What the hell i s all this
?
.

MANIAS

I have had music streaming into me non-stop for hours now, can't think of the moment I have to remove my earphones, in a few moments that's going to be happening... I'll be all right.
Have a necklace made of letters B L U and butterflies, checked if the word could have any meaning, hee hee. Let's just say I'll keep it and give it the meaning it had in my mind, that is almost blue.
I have been starving for a while already, headachey and feeling not-so-good-at-all.
Had a dream a few nights ago with Neil Gaiman explaining me the meaning of the letters in WHISKEY. Can't remember really. Had a dream the night before with this boy okay young man explaining a lot of things to me, looking at me and playing with his hair. WHAT!?!? Can't remember really.
Had a dream last night that seemed to last all my sleep, had trouble getting out of bed in time for the first lecture I've had for months and months and months, and know that this is special that I DID get up early and DID get to uni at a very early hour compared to before. This is special. And since it's monday, I might as well celebrate that I'm out and about on a monday, doing things, not dragged down by everyone-else's mondaymadness or blues.

Have got a new cap. With the picture of the head of a snake.
Shedding my skin I might be.
Transformer transformer
There has been change holding my hand and now, NOW
I'm letting go
And happening to read Billy's message right now is what I know means something. And sounds of snakes?
Throw out your cares and fly
ZERO The Smashing Pumpkins

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