I am the wave I've been waiting for

Where do I turn?
How do I explain and why do I always have to?
.

Would you like to be my social experiment?

Eksperyment
Absynthminded

I try not to cower away from the feelings I am told I cower at
I try not to think what it is I question
I try not to question constantly
I try not to
and I try to keep in mind
I try to keep my mind
I try to keep it in mind
to keep in mind
That there is reason, there is and we are
and I am,
I am.

And listening to what Gojira speaks makes me realise even more
I have no reason to scout the streets
I have no reason to scan the faces
I have no reason not to go
I have no reason not to


All the stars Fearlessly bright They call me out there Order me to face the wind
[GOJIRA: Backbone]

Beat your feet On the ground now, go !


Global warming by Gojira started playing in my earphones and I thought it was someone's phone ringing and I thought what a sad and beautiful tone, just like an alarm telling of something that is soon to happen and
why isn't anyone answering that call
and so I realised that it was the music I was listening to.

And as a warrior I have to fight
I can already feel
The love I’ll discover

I've heard eagles

I've seen the sun
and Aquarius is following me around. So is 58 and the big love I'm supposedly experiencing.
What is this mixture?
Well, I'm training myself into becoming strongly psychobilly;
my hair was the first to learn but I'm a long ways to go. Got just the patterns and fabrics I'll make dresses out of in a few weeks when I can afford it.
I'm training my attitude too.
And lipstick should be included in training, I know... the favourite one I smudged cos I had to write
Under Saturn's shadow YL
on a wall in the city's nightlife.
Hee, well done me.
I'm just doing things and looking at skies and adoring colours and adoring that and this and
laughed yesterday at Happy Noodle Boy going "My eyes, I can't see my eyes!!"
And thought "Myself, I can't see myself!!" and felt a bit bluuuue.
I saw some friends of someone I haven't seen for a long time and thought:
Maybe I'm supposed to globalise and really do so since there seems to be a hint of that relationshipwise.
Maybe may be.
I can't help loving TypeONegative's Cinnamon Girl
when the first notes hit my consciousness I just
SHAKE
just the feeling that also accompanies Ministry's Lay lady Lay.
These covers hit the note.
Me and Lena laughed a plenty watching DEAD MAN in the movies last night, the other four members of the audience were very quiet.
What a story.

there's LOVE

since I last was here

I have danced
danced
and sung and played

and playing along and playing alone are not things to fear
You do it when you do and don't when you don't
So many things that have questioned me and so many things I have questioned
these past few weeks
and since I'm back in the waiting-room, I was let out for a while for fresh air, I fear I won't know and don't know where to turn, what to focus on and where to be and what to be
and who to be
A lady biked in front of me today with a bag saying CHANGE
TypeONegative's I don't wanna be me starts playing on radioblogclub
and I feel aggressive in a good and walk-over-everyone mood and I don't like it.
Yeah, I know I comment it's good not knowing everything
but now I sit here and it feels like my feet aren't touching the floor even though I know they are
and I can't sleep anymore, not in my bed at least or at least not any smart way around.
I turn and sleep upside down and halfway onto the floor or wall
AND suddenly
There is a Light that never goes out
doesn't work on my playlist anymore
and what the hell
what the hell
what the I know exactly.
I know why what and now I'm really starting to know
when
and where I turn is where I turn,
of course there is a wish for real arms to hold me steady on this line. I've tried this road and I've tried it and tried it and i should've known
This is where I'm going.

Draw upon me, don't use chalk, don't use permanent marker
Draw upon me, I render
I render to the beat
I render tones
I render a beat
Draw upon me
Draw upon me with eager mind
Draw upon me
II

blaa blaa Blii bLaa

and to think that I was afraid of Skeletor when I was a kid.
and to think that I chose to become educated by, through and via Universityway. So I sit and try to make sense out of writing about a 90's book about cyberspace. In swedish.
and I try to make sense
sense
Bow to your sensei

And I'm keeping the music turned up here in my waiting-room
and I stay away from gloom

and saosin saosin saosin are cuuuute
Yea sweet, sure.

I stay indoors and go outside
Yoo Hoo how I love imperial teen again today
CONFETTI!!!!!!!!

YYYYYYYYY
YYYY
and today I love
PSYKUP