since I last was here

I have danced
danced
and sung and played

and playing along and playing alone are not things to fear
You do it when you do and don't when you don't
So many things that have questioned me and so many things I have questioned
these past few weeks
and since I'm back in the waiting-room, I was let out for a while for fresh air, I fear I won't know and don't know where to turn, what to focus on and where to be and what to be
and who to be
A lady biked in front of me today with a bag saying CHANGE
TypeONegative's I don't wanna be me starts playing on radioblogclub
and I feel aggressive in a good and walk-over-everyone mood and I don't like it.
Yeah, I know I comment it's good not knowing everything
but now I sit here and it feels like my feet aren't touching the floor even though I know they are
and I can't sleep anymore, not in my bed at least or at least not any smart way around.
I turn and sleep upside down and halfway onto the floor or wall
AND suddenly
There is a Light that never goes out
doesn't work on my playlist anymore
and what the hell
what the hell
what the I know exactly.
I know why what and now I'm really starting to know
when
and where I turn is where I turn,
of course there is a wish for real arms to hold me steady on this line. I've tried this road and I've tried it and tried it and i should've known
This is where I'm going.

Draw upon me, don't use chalk, don't use permanent marker
Draw upon me, I render
I render to the beat
I render tones
I render a beat
Draw upon me
Draw upon me with eager mind
Draw upon me
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