tomorrow's all glitter and glam

because we're themed Velvet Goldmine for NewYear's.
Satellite of Love and whatnot. Suits good that I'm reading Please Kill Me, then.
Suits good that I feel like the world's throwing me a sweet side and showing me a sweet smile
and reaching out to hug me, telling me that yeah, you said it
I was here all along
and I find myself over and over again, when I've been looking hard for someone else.
A cosy feeling, like someone hugging me with meaning, thought and feeling.
Come on, let's go find treasure!
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let me go wild

like a frostbite in the snow...
I'm spending a day in the sunlight
Say ocean, I am your wave
Say wave, I am your wind
Say wind, I am your sky
Say sky, I am your universe.
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8 8 I forget what 8 was for! and
Violent Femmes Kiss Off

dududududududududu

Andyoualreadyknowhowthiswillend
How it ends DeVotchKa


hee heeh hee heeh hheheheee
hee.
And there are whirlwinds that whirl in and they bring with them the laughter of ha ha my dearest darling don't stress over things that we can't think about even since they
change
and
you already know how this will end:
exactly in so many surprises and colours and unimaginable laughters and steps and shakes and goodness me
Kindness for evermore.
Take your smile and walk it around town
I might be out of money and I might be wanting to taste milk and honey
breaking my fast.
Walk backwards was it?

My dear heart
dear dear me
oh my my
I'm taking a shine with me where it is I go today
The strangest looking sun shines and looks strong
and I love you dear little earth, in your massiveness


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Distance yourself

Now you’re almost making me feel like I’ve done something wrong, like I’ve somehow managed to create enormous uncontrollable pressure.
Distance yourself.
Now you’re almost making it sound like what we’ve been going through has never happened to anyone else and will never happen to us again.
Distance yourself.
Now I’m almost starting to believe that what it is we might have might be getting in the way of everything, extinguishing everything we are.
Distance yourself.
Now I’m almost starting to believe that I will leave the door open, I will leave the lights on in case you still dare to feel like coming over.
Distance yourself.
Now you’ve almost made me feel like I have all the love in me to give while you cannot take it, while you cannot risk taking it.
Distance yourself.
Now you’re almost making me feel like I’ve been stupid enough to trust you, although that’s never what it was about.
Distance yourself.
Now I’m almost feeling like you’re making yourself hurt, like you’re making yourself hurt too much over this.
Distance yourself.
Now I’m almost insuring myself that I was not being myself enough just to keep you close, that I was keeping myself in check.
Distance yourself.
Now it’s almost like we’ve been overwhelmed by what it is that just seems to have happened between us, although there never was a doubt.

Distance yourself.

Walk,

walk your own way.
There's snow again and it's beautiful.
I have golden glitter around my eyes and pink sparkle around my right hand
blue around my eyes and my fingers end in bright red.
I am a zebra today. Or a snowtiger.

And
you
already
know
how
this
will
end
How it ends DeVotchKa

But as it is, I don't know. It makes me a bit tear-eyed to think that this has ended right here and that this is how I know it ends and will end and has ended,
but I haven't been told it's ended. I haven't been told it's over. I've been asked for time and distance and that's what I give - I don't know what will come
so what comes next is
what...
What?
Brains?
No, zombie I didn't become after all. Yet.

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I have been humbled

in the best way possible.
In the only way probably possible to humble me,
by love unasking and unwanting.
Simply understanding without asking
explaining
imposing.
I'm just learning,
that I have stated before and that's what I know.
Don't be afraid, I am not afraid.
I'm learning
I'm learning
And I love it.

And as the snow falls in the dark evening
I can't but smile and ask of you only to do the same.

What are you afraid of, you asked.
Nothing, I said, meaning the word. Now I feel a notion of fear about going to waste even though I'm not afraid.
I might think I need to be.

I'm not afraid.
All I can ask of you is to feel the same
Not to be afraid.

there are small clouds...

the shape of moons floating about the blue sky. The sky is turning a bit more pale, a bit more purple as the sun is going down but there's also gold and orange and yellow.
I come from playing with MMK and are they awesome, it's really playing in the truest meaning of the word. We love it. And we're about to build instruments that really...
they really...
I am happy.
And drum'n'bass by Shapeshifter in my ears, aaww!!
And got my SAOSIN finally. AAAWWW rawks.
YYYYAnd gotta hunt for d'espairs ray, the good mania muke I amYYYYYYYYYY

It's on

it's on
it's on it's ON!
The game is on; the race is on; the bet is
ON.

Well baby tonight, there isn't any rain but I'll got out and dance in the street any way
NO MATTER WHAT!
And tomorrow the dj's playing are going to be awesome. At least they better be and by the by
by the way
and see if that paths costs as much as my highway.
Cos star I am and star I'll stay


I know who'll make you SWOON

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my green eyes surrounded by blu

a long sleep later
a short while earlier
I feel
and feel for
and feel good.
Introduce myself?
I think I just have; nice to meet you.

My eyes turn to green

The trees are engaged in a dance that turns twigs and branches, sprays waterdrops
I'm surrounded by massive and awesome movement, haven't realized that in a long while.
Was again commented last night on looking like someone unknown to me. I've never known what to make of these comments more than to smile at them and laugh at the people launching them and agreeing with them that yeah, what a silly idea they had, thinking I'm someone I'm not.
What does that mean and who am I then?
There are so many smiles engaged in my life and I wonder what they all mean, I really am starting to wonder how this means things
since I smile and smile back
and make things mean things without thinking
without meaning
to.
I try to keep things explained to myself at least,
i try to keep things sure in a way at least
I try to keep myself aware of what I am, at least in my own light.

Ask me and I will tell you

Shine your own light

Did I say

that I'd never tell?
Did I promise myself somewhere along the way that I would not bother others with the being,
with the existence
of myself?
Did I speak words of not wanting to add to all the problems people seem to be having,
by apologizing for any inconvenience my smile or angry eyes or caring might bring?
Did I tell myself that others are awkward because I am not?
Did I tell myself that there's only one other that understands me and that I haven't met that other one yet?
Did I speak out the fact that I have no other fact but myself?
Did I mention that I don't feel I know more than anyone else, just that I know I feel and that
that might be something I haven't taken into consideration?
Did I decide on not showing that I appreciate myself?
Did I decide on caring so much about what people think that I won't think at all
anymore?
Did I decide that I am not worthy of myself,
not worthy the time spent
the voice heard
the laughter spread
the smile illuminating
the strentgh of muscles inside
the mind moving in waves?
Wings spread in the light morning air or blackness of night

Did I say I'd never tell?
Did I ever?
I break my own secret, the one I thought was a code unbreakable
It wasn't so very hard, now was it? Sweetness of release
Relief
I break the promise I made myself and reveal the secret I was keeping for myself
The secret I was keeping myself
from myself.
I say what I think
Just might be that I never say it out loud
Out loud so that ears other than mine understand that something is being said.

Then,
I know there are all of you who don't listen only with your ears.
I know there are all of you who don't listen only to the words.
I know there are all of you who never tell that you know, that you hear, that you understand.

Say ocean,
I am your wave.

There is help here

Say ocean and I will be the wave
Breathe without sound because push is a move
Pay attention as I am ready for real travel, mastering the language and finding treasure and going on an adventure,
exploring and finding
and seeking and seeing
that it's all there.
LIQUIDIZED
I radiate heart
and am empowered by the dreams
How about the path of healing?

"Be the change you want to see"


Today's clue:
unconditional love

MaVERiCK

I was waiting for a line of beginning to introduce itself onto me
and
WOWh
D'espair Ray's MaVERiCK
has the ever best beginning I've heard in sucha LONG TIME!
So relaxed I can't but drop MY SHOULDERS!!

DRUMS!!
DRUMS!
DRUMS DRUMS DRUMS
Ahh, so awesome.

And I've found a stream of conciousness
and writing
and words

And oh How pretty play my musical masters
CIRCA SURVIVE
and SAOSIN, past and present, thankyou
and The Smashing Pumpkins
are still and again so very beautiful

I shall now sit still and write
fly in my mind and hug you for being.
hhhhhuggggggGGGG
GGGGG
GGGGGGGGGGGggggg
'ggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!
MMMMMH!!
Felt that.

I'm learning

Indeed I am.
I am in leaving;
in learning;
in whisper
and in listening.


Stay brave,
electric too

walk backwards

sleep all night
No, wait, it's full moon
so make sure to be up and say hallo.
Might come by.


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Mother Earth

Planet of Love.

Can it be, can it be?
All synchronized and ready to go.
All liquidized.
All Mania Muke.
All
"I can't change the world but I can hopefully change somebody's emotion during the day."
[Cove, SAOSIN]
All
dressed down and ready to go.

Already.
Be an inspiration
Be inspired
All ready.

it is.