I'm not lost, I have myself right here

... as to gracefully quote Terry Pratchett.

And I seem to be in transition and there are all these colours around me that are
dark
and bright
and seethrough
I got a bit scared when all my dreams were stuffed with black and I called out and then answer i got was that when all the colours are all mixed up and in so many layers, all you get is black
and then I realised that it wasn't all black but as a matter of fact I saw strands of red and green and blue
and everything
and the eye is now opening.

And I am in transition and I am rapidly changing from being one or few colours to a completely new one
and I'm happy about it but so overwhelmed I'd just want to cry and eat and lie still
which is, at the same time, exactly what I don't want to do.

Now that I know
the way it goes
[Devandra Banhart]