blaa blaa Blii bLaa

and to think that I was afraid of Skeletor when I was a kid.
and to think that I chose to become educated by, through and via Universityway. So I sit and try to make sense out of writing about a 90's book about cyberspace. In swedish.
and I try to make sense
sense
Bow to your sensei

And I'm keeping the music turned up here in my waiting-room
and I stay away from gloom

and saosin saosin saosin are cuuuute
Yea sweet, sure.

I stay indoors and go outside
Yoo Hoo how I love imperial teen again today
CONFETTI!!!!!!!!

YYYYYYYYY
YYYY
and today I love
PSYKUP

I ain't your broken wing

and I ain't broken my own
and I ain't broken down

Today the sun shines and the sky is octarine
it's more than crystalclear

I have greeted many, thanked none
I now lift my soul to give my thanks to the ones of help
the ones of support
One can be many and many can be all

The leaves on the trees are trying to show the prisms of cosmos
the cosmos is showing us that it is
but is anyone looking
is anyone seeing

I see you right there
I see me right there
I see you right here
I see me right here

Here here
come here

I ain't your broken wing

This is my way
I’ve found my home
My state of real
There is no goal to reach
This is my way

Gojira To Sirius

I'm not lost, I have myself right here

... as to gracefully quote Terry Pratchett.

And I seem to be in transition and there are all these colours around me that are
dark
and bright
and seethrough
I got a bit scared when all my dreams were stuffed with black and I called out and then answer i got was that when all the colours are all mixed up and in so many layers, all you get is black
and then I realised that it wasn't all black but as a matter of fact I saw strands of red and green and blue
and everything
and the eye is now opening.

And I am in transition and I am rapidly changing from being one or few colours to a completely new one
and I'm happy about it but so overwhelmed I'd just want to cry and eat and lie still
which is, at the same time, exactly what I don't want to do.

Now that I know
the way it goes
[Devandra Banhart]

LOST TO THE BEAT

and perhaps forever lost in town?
And perhaps not?
I feel untrue in this town of mine right now, and yeah although it isn't my town...
Things are happening and other things are not happening and in a way somet of the things happening would be better not happening and vice versa.
But so, it's not like I have a way to magic myself into not-feeling
even though I like a song titled Queen Bitch. It's not about me of course.
Borrowing a guitar and a recordingdevice so that I'll start getting some tunes done.
What else has been on your mind lately?
On mine: not much and everything.
In good ways.

Everywhere you are
Is everywhere you've been
Just lost to the beat
Punching thru your skin
You don't know what to do
But still you wanna crawl
All thru the broken glass
That's eveywhere you are

[The Smashing Pumpkins The Imploding Voice]

And yeah, I won't forget to mention this
Devendra Banhart
saved my day today
not that my day was in danger, but still.

And Bonzo Dog Doo-Dah Band,
ah! is all I really need to say.

A deep voice is rising

step into your own light

The bassist of the Estonian band Pedigree was very inspiring in his relaxed and powerful playing.
Wow, that sounds like from a cookbook or something. Or something.
But well he was and he bounced and almost pranced and I found it very inspiring and all I wanted to do, almost hey I was there for the gig, was to get home and start doing tunes on my own dear bass.
dälek was good
pedigree was good

I'm using the word
GOOD
in it's utter sense and meaning, like in they did me good
none could've better.


My words are stairs
I put my feet on
and I climb through
a starless night
to my place
[GOJIRA: From Mars]

To the ones who know

For the ones who know
From the ones who know

If you are lookead upon with anger, how are you to react?
If you are looked upon with disappointment, how are you to react?
If you are looked upon with fear, how are you to react?
If you are looked upon with disgust, how are you to react?

If you feel your essence is being questioned, how do you react?
If you feel your self is being denied, how do you react?

What is the world?
Where do you live?
What do you fear?

Do you feel almost again?
Do you feel never again?
Do you feel soon again?
Do you feel surely again?


Today I shall give up something I don't even enjoy. Still it's not going to be enjoyable to give up because I'm already fearing the reaction that might come of it.
Not my own reaction - I don't need to react upon it - but the reaction of others.
But why should I worry?
Why should I mind?
The worst thing that could happen is that they'd turn me on myself. And so what, I don't need to take that from anyone. Not even myself.

Because we love you, we return to rock you S.Y.L.