Siamesed

Even more so when I realise I've been looking at the clock oddly.
It's not just past midnight.

It's three in the morning.

Might make me wonder some in the morning.


I have accepted the crystal grid.
Alignment in the web of conscious dreaming.

Surrounded by so many.
This many.
And still it feels like everyone else was nice and cosy and actually went to bed. Now sleeping soundly, with only me to sit here and awake even more with all new streams coming my way.

I hope to use blue glitter tomorrow.


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have you tried?

Maybe that's why nothing seems to work.

because all you're doing is trying
really
hard

Not remembering
Not doing anything but.

Have you tried?

Maybe that's why nothing seems to work.

because all you're doing is avoiding trying
really
badly.




Do.
TRy.

Be.
All you can be.
All you will be.
All you want to be.

You are a sun.



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i have been

i've been,
i mean...
..
...
...
..

I don't mean much. It's warm again outside. I'm painting my lips and i put glitter around my eyes to keep away the darkening evenings.
I keep other things at bay by staying tired and beating on drums with fierce eyes.
I am not tired today, I know this because I have smiled many a time

and I know it has long been time to just step into the flow
I think my feet are recognizing the thought
I think I'm ready to see where others are ready to take me.


I know I'm going to go see three ladies painted black around their eyes.
I know I'll be brave enough to laugh out loud if I question myself too wildly.


SiameseDrummers, continued

dancing for the sun

dancing for the moon

singing for the world to turn


see that intricate webbing called bones
feel that throbbing called blood
hear
hear
hear






I sit
awake

I breathe and
sit still and breathe
I look
I watch
I see, I think



Would you sing me to sleep tonight?

I could say

"I'm just here for the ride"

but I know there to be so much more to it all
than just being, than just going along.
At the same time, though, being is so much more than just being.

So I say
I am here to find my own ride
make my own way
take my own time
smile my own smile
and use my own eyes.




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