another five day week

another five days of gregorian time
another workingtime has come to an
end
a halt

Now it's friday we say
finally weekend it's said
Finally, I hear

Well, for me this makes not much difference. I still think about how to get things and sort things and figure things out
and how and why
and I'm in some sort of oblivion
but I'm liking it in a way, feeling like a real thing is happening
The silence before the scream
The darkness before the dream
The smile before the laughter

No one else needs to know this,
but I am on my way.
Most definitely.



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and i hear that the radio plays
heavy metal machine
and thank you, I shall be

And reading King Rat by China Miéville I have found understanding of how to continue my musicmaking, indeed also by listening to the awesome singstress of Zubs last nite at Tavastia.
"Hey! Sister!" he shouted when seeing me. And indeed, sister I am.
Brother of cosmos
and sister of universe.

Welcome, my dearest in existence and thank you for being beings.

It is the year of the Red Magnetic Moon:
Shine your own light

C.R.A.Z.Y.

is a very wonderful movie. I just saw it with mam and there were so many laughs and smiles and tears and understanding.
Just everything being fucking messed up and then not really. One of them movies that I've seen and felt leave warmth in my chest, strong light and clarity.
Marvel I do.

I'm almost there

I'm almost there to realise that I have to do some things
some things I might not feel like doing, but
but

I'm almost there
at least I'm here

Have some more cardamom in your hot drink
Have some more cucumber on your sandwich

Have some more faith in everything you're told
Have some belief in what is said to be important

Wake up feeling cold
Wake up shaking
Wake up too tired to be
Wake up
Wake up

Wake up

There are many faces in the world

I can't see them all
and I can't see behind them all
But there are faces
and there's Faces the festival that saved some of something in me. It fuond something in me. Something new along with restating something suspected.

I'll be at a kindergarten for the following two weeks while the summer gets chillier. I love it but it could stay summer for a while longer. Everybody's expectations of autumn might be calling in the darker nights, but I love seeing stars again
and I love the scent in the air.
Soon celebrations are near again as the year turns into colour. The moon is massive and displays many shades of strong reds and yellows.

I have found more music that makes beautiful
And found out I'm a mutant, thank you Shelley Jackson for helping me understand.

how i made my millions

the lyrics to the song by radiohead. I never knew it was radiohead and I never knew the lyrics.
I knew the name and it came up in some memories that made me smile, memories that showed me that indeed, my place is somewhere else.
Somewhere across oceans perhaps.



Stay on
Sit down
Let it fall

What I've now found doesn't really matter because I know where I'm headed.
Right out there
somewhere

and there are other skies,
there are other s...

Lovelovelovelovelovelove,
L